Of course I waited/
at the country/
county crossroads.
Who wants to get hit/
by a tanker truck/
full of shit?
Of course I waited/
at the country/
county crossroads.
Who wants to get hit/
by a tanker truck/
full of shit?
When I invite you
to listen to
the flash of brilliance
and the crash of thunder
from my words,
I do not ask
for edits,
or opinion,
or help.
I simply
invite you to join me,
standing on the dock,
watching the storm approach
and roll
and form.
I ask you to dance
on the wind with me,
no matter what
your movements may be,
no matter what
my jam may look like.
But please don’t tell me
to do a Demi plié
when I want
to play air guitar.
She couldn’t wait for/
me to love her the way I/
need to, so I can’t.
My family always
calls each other,
twice a year:
“The wild geese are flying!”
“I’ll be right there!”
We grab cups of coffee,
throw on layers,
and brisk walk to the lake.
Ice, black and mottled,
or silver and new,
covers the bays
and inlets,
but, somewhere,
waves are breaking through.
There is open water.
From far away,
carried on cold breezes
which sting our ears
and tear our eyes,
we hear the familiar call.
“HuhUUuh. HuhUUuh.”
We peer out over the lake,
up,
until we see them,
the familiar V
cutting through the wind.
And we laugh,
and jump up and down,
and wave,
and cry.
I’ve wondered why
it stirs us;
why we always
run to see them,
as certainly as they
always
fly.
Do they look for us,
standing on the shore,
waving,
watching,
calling,
crying?
Does the dip of their wings
as they land,
one after the other,
say to us
“Hello, old friends,
ground-bound.
Good to see you.
Thanks for the welcome.
Your clothes never match,
but they make us laugh!
HuuuUHH. HuuuUHH!”
Probably not.
But we can pretend.
Maybe we run
and listen
and search
and watch
because they remind us
of our place.
We join with them
in the great globe,
spinning,
circling,
returning again
and again
and again.
They take away
our winter fears.
Steel us against the
incoming!
cold,
or soar
our spirits
with promise
and hope
and upcoming
warmth.
As long as they fly,
life goes on
as it has,
as it will,
as it should.
We can
and will
continue
to spread our wings,
to fly,
to run,
to call,
to wave,
to cry,
to laugh,
to believe,
to know our place
in things,
as long as there is
the constancy
of wild geese.
You’ve anxiety/
o’er where to be New Year’s Eve?/
Pity. Don’t worry!
I’ve been there.
I know,
not exactly,
but partially,
how it feels
to doubt.
I get
that you don’t get
how fabulous you are,
how positive we are.
The dreams we hold
dear,
as children,
as princesses and princes,
or as knights
or court jesters,
get beaten.
We lose.
Instead of dreams,
nightmares.
Or worse.
Because in nightmares
we fight.
We rage,
rage,
against the onslaught,
against the lava
that covers us,
against our pants
falling down,
preventing us from running
until we awaken,
wrapped
and trapped
in the sheets
designed to hold us
and keep us
safe
and warm.
No nightmares
take us to death’s door,
stop our dreaming.
It is the belief
that we can’t.
We fear to close
our eyes,
not because we’ll dream
nightmares,
but because we fear
dreaming
nothing.
That fear
follows us
into life.
We believe
the doubts.
We believe
the nothing.
We see
nichts.
But we are always
wrong.
Even when we are
nothing,
we are something.
The likelihood
of being great
is just as great
as the lie
we believe
of nothing.
You tell me
“I think I am
nothing.”
I tell you
“I think you are
something.”
Which is right?
Even in a straight-up
gamble,
there is fifty percent
likelihood
you are
something.
This is no gamble.
It is real.
You exist.
And because you exist,
you are
something.
How great
your something
is
can be discovered.
If not,
it still exists.
It is there
because
you are here.
You just
have to accept
the fact
that,
no matter how you see
yourself,
(or don’t),
other people are going to see
you.
Most will see you well.
And they
(at this point in your life)
are more likely to be closer
to the truth
than you,
sadly,
are.
Some day you will get back
to seeing yourself
as the awesome
and creative
and talented
and intelligent
and shining
person
you really are.
Right now,
you just
have to take
my word
for it.
Word.
Truth.
I’m moved by the gift./
I’m brought to tears because he/
asked for it for me.
I finally learned/
why I’ve stayed so distant. Fear./
She’s the Goddess, dreamed.
AND
When teenage boy dreams
and fantasies
turn into adult man
realities,
they still can be
scary.
BOOM!!
You know what it is.
You’ve heard it before.
It’s lake ice
cracking,
contracting,
expanding,
shoving
and shelving.
Never that loud.
Never rattling the windows.
Never shaking the house
and your chair.
Never that violent.
Nature at her best.
Coolest.
BOOM!
You run outside,
look up,
making certain
it’s not a cold war
jet,
no “bombs bursting
in air”,
BOOM!
You walk over
next door,
look inside,
talk to the construction guys,
making sure
they didn’t blow up.
The BOOM!crashrattleshake
you heard
is what you thought.
You’re part
of the freezin’
season.
But even though
you know,
the BOOM!
still surprised
and scared you.
Just for a moment.
Just a little.
Your heart beats fast,
BOOM!,
boom,
boom,
until you learn
for certain,
it’s just Mother Nature
playing percussion.
Cool.
Real cool.