Do not ever hate/
crying with emotion*, or/
you’ll shut off my tears.
OR
*emotional crying, ‘cuz/
The red sandstone lay,
slight dimpled drill hole,
square-cut right-angled block,
beneath an ancient cross-joist
floor timber.
I thought I could take it,
a memory of someone’s old home,
a house I’d often seen
before a geological disaster
mud-slid, then drowned it
and its town,
thistle down,
into near oblivion.
Utah’s Pompeii,
covered with mud
except for a few
cut-stone
structures.
This red sandstone rectangle,
90 degree
right angle cut
not found in nature:
No one would miss it.
The rough red
would create an awesome border
on my garden,
a new use for old stone.
But even as I hoisted it
and walked car-ward,
it seemed to say:
“Stay.”
Heading downhill,
I slipped on rain-soaked mud
and had to throw it as I fell
to avoid having it
crush my pelvis.
Sitting in the back
of my car,
it seems to whisper
“Take me home.”
I almost dropped it off
last night,
right after I nearly hit
a white-tailed deer
on State Route 89,
near where there jersey barrier
separates me
and the block
from the home
it has known
for a hundred years.
Do the stones
have souls?
Do the square-cut corners
and dimpled indentations
still hold memories
and longingly speak?
I do not know.
I do know
that it does not belong
with me,
in my garden.
So I willdid return it
with honor,
and will hopefully
not slip again.
If you let your mom/
do your laundry, she will shrink/
every shirt you own.
Now, I’ve returned.
Now, we’ve again met.
It was nice seeing
her again.
Now what?
My enthusiasm is not
rampant.
My desire is not
intense,
unlike the past.
But I’m not ambiguous, either.
I’m calm,
waiting,
like sap within
an old apple tree’s roots
after a long winter.
It waits to be warmed
by spring sun’s rays.
To rise up
and flow out
and push the buds
into blossoms
that explode
inscentandcolorandbeauty
and eventually
bear sweet fruit.
Outside, pink-red
like her lips and skin.
Inside, light gold
like her hair,
moist like the sap
that is starting, now, to move.
With stem to twist
and ask,
at harvest,
“Now what?”
Pick, and taste,
and savor the sweetness
and nourishment
.
Or ignore
until the fruit
grows past
what it could have been
and falls,
unnoticed,
to the ground,
where it bruises,
and turns brown
and sour
and rots.
“While there’s life, there is hope.” STEPHEN HAWKING, People’s Daily Online, Jun. 14, 2006
Even when there is/
no life, there is life, and so/
there is always hope.
Do you ever ask/
You: “What should I be doing?”/
What is the answer?