Your past experience

Has always been

There is no rush.

There is little anticipation.

It is always just convenient.

It doesn’t mean anything.

You claim it is different

With us,

But when there is only silence

It sounds like

What you’ve told me about.

It feels the same

To me.

So I wonder

If the distance

And the blasé’

And the non-connection

Is really what you want,

Just like you always have.

And I wonder

If I should ask,

Or would that be pushy.

And I wonder

If I should just wait,

In silence,

And how long

it will be

Until I finally

Figure it out.

Until I finally

believe

and trust

with my heart,

my heart.